On Pondering, Posting and Getting One In Just Under the Wire
It’s Friday night. It’s after 10:00. I have yet to post anything.
Since I started this blog in 2005, I have posted every weekday with the exception of scheduled periods of silence. And even those periods of silence began after a Friday post and ended with a new Monday post. I’ve never missed a weekday.
And yet, I was very tempted to just let today pass by without a posting anything.
You see, I’m feeling rather inert these days. I was supposed to head to Portland this week for my first return trip since leaving there in 2006, but work obligations are keeping me in Chicago. I had planned to spend Memorial Day weekend with friends, enjoying the many festivities happening in the city, but social obligations put an end to that. There are a couple of major changes I want to make in my life, but circumstances have gotten in the way.
In other words, I’m feeling rather stuck. There is this sense that life is keeping me from doing the things I want to do and being the person I want to be.
This makes it hard to blog. It makes it hard for me to be fully engaged in my life. It makes it hard to share myself without sounding like a whiny brat who is just looking for attention.
And so I find myself sitting at my computer at 10:12 on a Friday night wondering if I should even post anything. Would anyone notice if I didn’t? If they did notice, would they care? Has this blog become as stunted as I feel I’ve become?
Those are questions I must ponder. I’ll ponder them while I ponder so many other things. I’ll ponder them while I work on bettering my attitude and finding joy in the things I can change. I’ll ponder them while I figure it all out.
And if I’m not back on Monday, it means I am pondering them while on a break.
When I get stuck, I’ve learned to sit still and don’t try to become unstuck. This eventually happens on its own. I am intrigued to know where you next will be going.
Meanwhile, The Muses are at IML so stop by and ask them for some ideas and/or discipline.
I hope you enjoy your long weekend as you ponder…
That’s usually how I feel about twitter…stuck, not knowing what to write, and if I wrote anything, would anyone care, especially with the over 1,000 following that most people have, my tweet would just get lost in the crowd. Seriously though, I think it’s normal to have days when you feel stuck, it’s just a phase I think. Hope you feel better.
We’re anxiously awaiting your return, mister…
We’ll be right here when you get back, Sparky! Take care of yourself.
Hi Dr Sparky.
I’m looking forward for your return. I do mis you a bit.
Greets from Belgium
…tapping foot, TRYING to be patient about your return…
Hi Sparky,
I think its just the general malaise we all get from time to time as bloggers.
I’ve often wondered if all of my posting is after all just pointless drivel. But, then after a while realize that If I’m doing it for posterity then it’s actually worth while and just shows my current human condition.
There’s nothing wrong with taking a breather, and collecting yourself. Recently, I just had to tell myself that ultimately, my blog is for myself. Not for any readership, or comments..
Just put down a line every day. Chronicle your heart, and feelings. And don’t worry about the rest of it..
OK, not that I’m OCD or anything, but I’m stopping here a few times a day just to see if you’ve posted. Could you (pretty please with a cherry on top??) just tell us that you’re taking a break (well, DUH!), with possibly a tentative date that we can expect you back?
It would make me feel MUCH less anxious about there being no posts…….
I saw you commented on Dirk’s post—does that mean you’re back in the blogosphere?
This looks cool so far, what’s up people?
If there’s anyone else here, let me know.
Oh, and yes I’m a real person LOL.
Bye,
As much as I hate change, I’ve finally faced up to the possibility that Sparky won’t be back….not taking him out of ‘my favorites’ just yet, but need to cut back the visits….missin’ ya, Dr. Sparky Louise Veronica Horton Brady.
This looks cool so far, what’s up people?
If there’s anyone else here, let me know.
Oh, and yes I’m a real person LOL.
See ya,
Hello darling, just popping in and see you haven’t blogged.. in months. I know you are on your whirl-wind tour of the PACNW so… happy trails to you!
Ummmmm, didn’t a little bird tell me you’d be back very soon? Love the new page, but write something already!
Vince! You told me you’d be back (and I have the e-mail to prove it!). Have you changed your mind? Decided to take an around-the-world cruise instead? Met Mr. Right, who happens to be independently wealthy, hot, and insistent that you remain in a state of bliss at all times? C’mon, Sparky! Spill!
Just find something annoying to bitch about and run with it.